Lucille's Lament

My dear child, have you forgotten
The babe that I once knew

With golden hair and bright eyes

Whose sins amounted to few?

Still I worried for your soul

When you were and infant I christened you,

So if you died an untimely death

It would be heaven that you’d go to

My cold arms may never hold you again

From heaven I still look down

To watch over my sweet granddaughter

Who in her troubles she has drowned

Her golden hair has turned dull

The light has gone from her eyes

Her face is weary from sorrow

From the guilt she feels for her lies

Do you feel bad lying to your parents,

So you can drink away your troubles?

You gave yourself up at seventeen

And your problems surely doubled

Constantly turning to others for approval

Always changing to earn someone’s love

Instead you got disappointment, betrayal,

Not realizing the love you need is above

The world to her “fend for yourself”

She began to mirror the selfishness

She continued to commit other sins,

Embracing her new ruthlessness

I see you for what you are

You cower at the thought of God’s might

So you tell yourself there is no God

And it is up to you to decide what is right

Where is that beautiful child?

She is not a part of you now

How could she be behind those judgmental eyes

Or  stay smiling behind your scowl?

At one point you did try

To do what’s right, and I was proud

But you let the world corrupt you

And the call of evil was too loud

I’m sorry I could not be there for you

With my time I did all I could

I loved you and protected you

Like every grandmother should

But it was you who turned your back on God

But  I will still miss you so

Because when the angel of death carries you away

It is to hell that you will go